My Turning Point - To Be Continued (Part 1)

When I was young, I kept journals. I have collected over 15 journals during my teenagers, college, and early young adult years. I used to have so much to write, so much to complain, and so much to share. I, however, haven't written a single journal in the past five or six years. Six years ago, I went through some kinds of self-realization and self-awakening processes. Since then, I was a changed person. I used to be very melancholy and unhappy. I blamed on many things such as having to leave home at young age and live in a foreign country thousand miles away all by myself. I blamed on bad luck followed me like haunted ghost and made me encounter bad relationships one after another. I once saw no hope that I lost the purpose of living. My spirit was so crushed that it hit beyond the rock bottom. I cried almost every night. I looked at the four empty walls and my lonely soul and couldn't help but cried. Then one afternoon, I came home after work and cried again because I was so lonely. When my tears finally dried out, I suddenly command myself that crap feeling needed to be stopped. Of course, I had no clue how I could do that at that moment. The next day, I hung out at a local Barnes and Noble and was wandering around the "self-help" session. All the sudden, I saw a book named "The Tao of Inner Peace." I was initially drawn by the word "inner peace." The truth is that the teachngs from that book had literally changed my life - my entire perspective of life. It was like a God-sent enlightenment. What kind of enlightenment? I will share with you soon. Stay tuned.