It's...




It's that day when we first met
It's that day when we first kiss
It's that day when you first sing to me
It's that day when you first say sar ron say yo to me

It's that night when we first count stars together
It's that night when we first dance under moonlight
It's that night when you first played guitar to me
It's that night when you first say Wou Ai Li to me

In that sleepless night
In that private cabin
we glorified love
with our body and soul
for the first time

In that bustling casino floor
In that dashling Taj Mahal
we accentuated love
with our heart and spirit
for the first time

It's that little lighter you gave me
my heart was on fire
It's that silver dog tag you gave me
my soul was captured

It's that rainy night
our souls were naked
It's that unreserved request
our desires became raw

It's that unexpected instant message
my peace was uprooted
It's that unprepared phone call
my soul was shattered

In that shocking evening
In that ghastly moment
my world was stopped
my heart was snapped
with the cruelest way
for the first time

In that lonely highway
In that familar TA
my senses were lost
my eyes were looking away
with the heaviest spirit
for the first time

It's those uncontrollable tears
my heart was flooded
It's those unbearable agonies
my soul was burned

It's all began on that day we first
It's all began on that night we first

昨夜的渡輪上 - This is a song I sang at a singing contest when I was in high school. This is a folk song and I was seriously drawn to it because of the lyrics. Although I did not win that contest, the lyrics of this song have never left me since then. I hope you will enjoy it as much as I do.

昨夜的渡輪上　李炳文

　曲：林功信
　詞：馮德基
　

夜渡欄河再倚　
北風我迎頭再遇
動盪如這海
城在兩岸凝神對視

霓虹伴著舞姿
當酒醉如同不知
日後望這方
醉中一切無從掀抓住

渡輪上　懷念你說生如戰士
披戰衣　滿載清醒再次開始

莫問豪情似痴
今天醉倒狂笑易
夜盡露曙光
甦醒何妨從頭開始

　
Tonight I was leaning on a fence of a ferry sailing across the harbor of darkness
Strong wind is blowing forcefully onto my forehead from the north
It is as turbulent as the sea
But the two island shores are just staring at each other quietly

The neon light from both island shores becomes the dance partners of the strong wind
I am a bit drunk and seem losing some of my bearings
If one day I happen to look back to this direction
I don't think I can grab it tight

On this ferry, I remember you once said to live like a warrior
Wear the armor, be sober, and start it all over again

Please don't ask why I have such crazy heroic feelings
After all I found myself laugh so widely in this drunken night
There will be a crack of dawn when this night ends
But then I wouldn't know where to start when I am sober again

(translated by Fefe)

Life is not always hopeless. There will be a crack of dawn even when dark night ends. By the same tokens, there is always light at the end of a tunnel. Though it's not easy to go through darkness by yourself, if we can be strong and stay awake, we will come to the end of tunnel and see the light eventually.

我和春天有個約會歌詞 - This is one of my all-time favorite Chinese Songs. I hope you will enjoy it as much as I do.
我和春天有個約會 - 劉雅麗
曲︰鍾志榮
詞︰鍾志榮
編︰溫浩傑




夜闌人靜處　響起了一訣幽幽的SAXAPHONE
牽起了愁懷於心深處
夜闌人靜處　當聽到這一訣幽幽的SAXAPHONE
想起你茫然於漆黑夜半

在這晚星月迷濛　盼再看到你瞼容
在這晚思念無窮　心中感覺似沒法操縱
想終有日我面對你　交低我內裡情濃
春風有日會為你跟我重逢吹送

夜闌人靜處　當天際星與月漸漸流動
感觸有如潮水般洶湧
若是情未凍　請跟我哼這幽幽的SAXAPHONE
於今晚柔柔的想我入夢中

夜闌人靜處　當天際星與月漸漸流動
感觸有如潮水般洶湧
若是情未凍　請跟我哼這幽幽的SAXAPHONE
它可以柔柔將真愛為你送

若是情未凍　始終相信我倆與春天有個約會
I HAVE A DATE WITH SPRING


In this quiet night somewhere there are some sad saxaphone tunes
The sad tunes stir up the saddness buried deep in my heart
In this quiet night when I hear those sad saxaphone tunes
I remember your feeling of lost lingering in this midnight darkness

Tonight I wish I could see your face through the hazy moonlight
Tonigth I have countless thoughts and my deep feelings are out of control
I wish I could face you one day and hand over all of my strong feelings to you
The spring bleeze will bring us back together one day

In this quiet night when stars and moon are slowly moving through the galaxy
My feelings are as if roaring tides
If my love for you has not turned cold please let me humph this sad saxaphone tune
And let's these sad tunes softly bring me into your dream tonight

In this quiet night when stars and moon are slowly moving through the galaxy
My feelings are as if roaring tides
If my love for you has not turned cold please let me humph this sad saxaphone tune
The sad tunes can softly bring my true love to you

If my love for you has not turned cold I believe we will have a date with the spring one day
I HAVE A DATE WITH SPRING

(translated by Fefe)

Check out this web site http://blog.webs-tv.net/anitalin/article/315117 to learn about the story behind this beautiful song and to hear the tune.

Isn't it beautifully sad?

Pre-Madonna Type of Girl

I have this girl at work who would miss at least 2 out of 5 working days every week. I have not seen her working for a whole full week ever. Every time she would have a name for her illness as an excuse for sick leave. I called it an excuse because if she really is sick as she said she was, she got to be completely fell apart by now. I bet she visited webmd.com every day and look up a different name of illness you can use for her next excuse for calling in sick. The names of illness that she has been using so far including (but not limited to) headache, pink eyes, ear infection, soar throat, cold, chest pain, stomach ache, back ache, and the most recent one, urine infection. Since she has been using names of illness all the way from head to upper body to lower body, may be the name for her next illness will be something related to her leg or toes. It pisses me most is that she could get away from it. I don't know how. May be she thinks she is a pre-Madonna so she doesn't give a s**t what other people think and does whatever she likes. Crazy huh?!

My Turning Point - To Be Continued (Part 1)

When I was young, I kept journals. I have collected over 15 journals during my teenagers, college, and early young adult years. I used to have so much to write, so much to complain, and so much to share. I, however, haven't written a single journal in the past five or six years. Six years ago, I went through some kinds of self-realization and self-awakening processes. Since then, I was a changed person. I used to be very melancholy and unhappy. I blamed on many things such as having to leave home at young age and live in a foreign country thousand miles away all by myself. I blamed on bad luck followed me like haunted ghost and made me encounter bad relationships one after another. I once saw no hope that I lost the purpose of living. My spirit was so crushed that it hit beyond the rock bottom. I cried almost every night. I looked at the four empty walls and my lonely soul and couldn't help but cried. Then one afternoon, I came home after work and cried again because I was so lonely. When my tears finally dried out, I suddenly command myself that crap feeling needed to be stopped. Of course, I had no clue how I could do that at that moment. The next day, I hung out at a local Barnes and Noble and was wandering around the "self-help" session. All the sudden, I saw a book named "The Tao of Inner Peace." I was initially drawn by the word "inner peace." The truth is that the teachngs from that book had literally changed my life - my entire perspective of life. It was like a God-sent enlightenment. What kind of enlightenment? I will share with you soon. Stay tuned.

What do you think of having Plan B?

Today I was blogging someone's post about not wanting to have plan B because she fears that by having plan B to fall back to, she would never work hard enough to make plan A works. She also said that since she loves life so much that even there would be difficulties and failures in life, she would still hold on to plan A and plan A only. This is my response to her.

It is wonderful to love life. Why shouldn't we? We only have one and really don't know how long it lasts until it ends. Life is full of sufferings and pain but yet is filled with happiness and laughers. That makes life so interesting and unique. If we have never gone through sufferings and pain, we will never understand how great to be happy and to laugh. I go through life with one important concept. If I am at the bottom of my spirit and going through the toughest time of my life, I don't give up hope because I believe there is always light at the end of a dark tunnel. Life, afterall, is a cycle.

I am a plan B girl and may be that's why I am not successful. I do not like to feel hopeless when things are not going my way. In B school, we call that contingency planning. I am a planner. I plan everything. I guess it's because I want to be still in control when my plan A is not working. If I have tried everything I could for plan A and it's still not working, I will feel better if I have a plan B to try. That is just my personal opinion. : )

I wonder what other thinks.

My Old Poem 2 - The Dream







I could see him
laying half naked
on a upper bump bed
with his eyes closed carelessly
I could hear him
Snoring quite peacefully
like a quiet sleeping baby
in a creamy colored tent
many long-to-go-home men
It's a place called B.O.S.N.I.A.
Not long ago
One Saturday early morning
peakig through the white blinds
still at dawn outside
I climbed over you warm body
down onto the bone-chilling floor
I couldn't help but to turn my head
glazing at you
your half naked body
your eyes're closed carelessly
a smile cracked through your baby cheeks
I couldn't help but to softly said in your ears
baby I love you
I glazed
I smiled
I couldn't stop glazing
I couldn't stop smiling
I couldn't glaz at you no more now
I couldn't smile at you no more now
I couldn't say how much I love you softly in your ears no more now
only in my dreams
only in my visions
It's still sweet
Sweet like a baby
My heart pounds
My mind is gone
gone with the dream
I still long to touch
I still long to kiss
I still long to love
Let's not the dream dies
Let's not the vision fades
fussy but struggling
struggling to reach
reach the unreachable
for beauty only exists in the unreachable

My Old Poem 1 - Reaching

Stretch my arms
longing to reach the stars
Stretch my heart
longing to reach thy love
Stretch, stretch, and stretch
shouldn't be that far
a voice I could hear
"Don't hurt yourself
for they are far"
I care not
though my arms hurt
my heart aches
Reach, reach, and reach
You see
when one wants somethig so bad
to give up?
just couldn't!
Why should I?
I grab the stars
I grab thy love
till they are
up close and possible

我愛徐志摩的詩

徐志摩 is my favorite Chinese poet. I love his poems. I particularly love two of his famous poems. I have attached a web link for most of his poems below. Please feel free to check it out. I have also copied and pasted those two favorite poems of his below. Enjoy.

偶然
我是天空裡的一片雲 偶爾投影在你的波心
你不必訝異 更無須歡喜 在轉瞬間消滅了蹤影
你我相逢在黑夜的海上 你有你的　我有我的方向
你記得也好 最好你忘掉 在這交會時互放的光亮

再別康橋
輕輕的我走了，正如我輕輕的來；
我輕輕的招手，作別西天的雲彩。
那河畔的金柳，是夕陽中的新娘；
波光裏的艷影，在我的心頭蕩漾。
軟泥上的青荇，油油的在水底招搖：
在康河的柔波裏，我甘心做一條水草！
那榆蔭下的一潭，不是清泉，是天上虹。
揉碎在浮藻間，沉澱著彩虹似的夢。
尋夢？撐一支長篙，向青草更青處漫溯。
滿載一船星輝，在星輝斑爛裏放歌。
但我不能放歌，悄悄是別離的笙簫；
夏蟲也為我沉默，沉默是今晚的康橋！
悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的來；
我揮一揮衣袖，不帶走一片雲彩

http://home.educities.edu.tw/f5101231/g4.html

My Job Sucks...


My job sucks because I have a suck boss. I hate to say that but she is selfish, heartless and inconsiderate. Well, she's the boss so I really have no saying. I have to listen to her craps and do whatever she told me to do no matter how ridiculous it is. Well, I am planning to start looking for another job this fall so I can get out of my current suck job no later than next February hopefully. By that time, my suck job will reach its fifth anniversary. I should be proud of myself for sticking with this suck job for that long. I really could have found another job long time ago. After all, that is what I did in the past. If I didn't like someone, I left the person. If I didn't like the city, I relocated. If I didn't like the job, I found another one. I had never stayed in one place or job for more than 3 years. But now I prefer not. I like to stay in the same city, hang around with the same people, work at the same place. I think it's the age thing. Now I am older and want to be a nester. I don't even know what nester means in the past until recent years. This such job, however, has been driving me to the edge for so long that I really couldn't be a nester for this job. Leaving this suck job is surely not a hasty decision. As a matter of fact, it is a well thought-out plan. Anyhow, all I need to do now is to avoid unnecessary confrontations, continue to work hard on my assignments, but not to voluntee any additional tasks that the damn boss will deny compensating me. Making me using my sick leaves as compensation for my overtime works. Only a damn boss can do such a thing.

If there is any justice in the world, can someone please enlight me by showing me?

Thankful Me!

Everyday I woke up, I smile and thank God for loving me. I am a Christian but don't go to church. I just love and believe in GOD. I know He loves me even I am so not deserved to be loved. He has never left me and is always there for me especially when I need Him most. Lately I thank Him a lot for my husband. He is truly a God-sent. Considering all the sins and mistakes that I had intentionally and unintentionally committed in the past, God still forgives me and loves me. The fact that I have both GOD and my husband, how can I say I am not a lucky woman!